Passing my Bluemoon

A month..
A really hard time for me..
A lot of things has happen..
Cry laugh,
hate love frust..
u juz name it...
and it pass through me within a month..
it just like miracle..
it is a magic..
but yet..
here i am..
Still as me..
but with a clear direction..
with a situation that i can only dream before..
There is not much effort i had done..
only by pray and ask..
of course He will not give it free..
He tested me with all the feeling..
He gave me to many options to pick..
Until i caught into confused..
And yet still He gave me His love..
only He knows how hard for me to make the decision..
between desire and the facts..
until i found the crisis of my life..
He leads me to the right path..

Sometimes in life,
we will face the junction..
After a long search..
We still can't determine which junction to take..
As a risk taker..
I always find myself to face the challenges..
But not this time..
Eventhough, I'm forwarding to the hard lane..
But somehow ever..
I can't explain and I can't deny
He direct me to the lane that i never want to explore before..
The lane with full of forgiveness..
As an egoist women, I admit..
I am a person with no forgive and forget..
This time within this one month..
Alhamdulillah, i passed through my bluemoon of life..
With He always in my heart and my mind..
And again He reward me by having the time of my life..
Yet still I ask Him to always accompany me through out my life..
Ya Allah Yang Maha Pemurah dan Penyayang..
Amin